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‘How did I not see the signs? We made it to the children’s psych ward. I wanted to kiss the boo boos away, but I couldn’t.’: In the wake of 12-year-old daughter’s ‘suicide plan,’ mom says we can’t be ‘the perfect parent’ no matter how hard we try

“The doctor comes in. ‘Can I speak with you in private?’ I feel on the verge of a panic attack, but I simply smile and follow her to the nurse’s station. ‘So, what do you feel is going on?’ I explain the events of the phone call from school. She says, ‘We have no choice but to admit your daughter. She has a clear plan to commit suicide.’ My stomach is in knots.”

‘Overnight, our 15-month-old’s personality changed. A once easy-going child turned aggressive, OCD’ish.’: Mom learns of son’s PANDAS/PANS diagnosis, ‘There was ZERO doubt in my mind he had this’

“He would scream bloody murder to get in the bath tub, and became obsessed with wearing ‘soft’ clothes. It was like walking on eggshells since an explosion could happen at any moment for no reason. I chalked it up to him being a toddler, with a new baby brother and all the changes military life brings. Over time, I knew this was not the case.”

‘Anxiety isn’t just chest pains, crying, and the inability to relax.’

“It’s biting your nails until they bleed, then picking off the skin on your fingers once you’re out of nails to bite. It’s asking your partner several times a day if they love you, partially kidding, but mostly needing to hear it because you find it so hard to love yourself in that moment.”

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