battling grief

‘I became a crappy friend. My best friend got cancer. Instead of being a rockstar, I went MIA.’: Woman pens sweet letter to best friend who beat cancer after losing her mother

“My best friend showed up at my son’s birthday party and told me she had the same cancer that took my mom a year earlier. I was numb. Heartbroken. Clueless how to maneuver through grief, while also trying to support her. Sure, I sent cards and care packages. But I was MIA. Truth is, I was obsessively thinking about her. It’s taken a year to finally wake up.”

‘Gunner and his friend took a percocet to get ‘high.’ They went to sleep, and never woke up.’: Teen poisonined by Fentanyl-laced percocet pill, ‘I’d do anything for one more hug’

“Gunner was never been a ‘problem child.’ He had a whole life ahead of him. Goals, aspirations. He wanted to be a dad. He wanted to continue playing football in college. Gunner wasn’t done. One bad choice, one stupid minor mistake, was all it took. Gunner, I would do just about anything to bring you back. For one more hug. For one more smile. For one more, ‘Hey, Aunt Brandi.’ The pill had enough poison to kill 10 adult males.”

‘It’s good to see you’re moving on.’ It’s been 2 years since my husband died. I’ll never ‘get over it.’: Widow candidly shares ‘gut-wrenching’ moments of grief, ‘our memories are fading’

“I found myself in the deoderant section at the grocery store for a really long time. I opened, breathed in every men’s Right Guard stick until I found the sport one. I held it close to my nose. I didn’t cry. I wanted to. But there was a guy behind me, browsing gift cards. I figured he’d find it really odd to see a woman weeping at the smell of antiperspirant in aisle 11. I’m trying not to forget his smell, but it’s fading.”

‘Birth control?!?!’ At 18, I was told I wouldn’t conceive. WELL, one little puck slipped past the goalie.’: Woman receives emergency hysterectomy at 23, ‘it still stings to think about’

“I was STRONGLY encouraged to wait for kids. My incision was paper thin. 3 months later, I was pregnant. My little baby was growing alongside fibroids the size of ORANGES. To make matters worse, he was sunny-side up. My life was in danger. In my foggy head, I heard, ‘Amber, we can’t get the bleeding to stop. Do you want your tubes tied?’ I woke up covered in blood.”

‘What parent wants to see their deceased child?’ They laid her in my arms. I could almost hear her coo.’: Couple loses daughter in tragic ‘freak accident’ still birth, ‘I will not get over it’

“She was perfectly formed. She had long, narrow toes like her Mama, full beautiful lips like her Daddy. It took my breath away. I was in love. When it came time to say goodbye, her little body had already changed. Our sweet baby wasn’t there. We held and kissed her 1,000 times. ‘We will miss you every moment of our lives,’ we told her. We said goodbye to her little body. They carried her away.”

‘LOOK, there he is! Daddy’s checking on us!’ A butterfly divebombed. I never got to say goodbye.’: Widow shares beautiful moments husband ‘visited’ after passing suddenly from cancer

“I walked out of the grocery store defeated, missing him. It’s been nearly 2 years since my husband died. I got in the car, closed the door. ‘How the hell did you get in here?!’ A little brown butterfly was flitting against the closed windows. ‘You again? God, I missed you,’ I whispered. He just sat there, pulsing his beautiful wings. I never got to say goodbye. I’m forever looking for signs.”

‘Are you KIDDING? Don’t be a prude. Just take the drink!’ I shook my head no. I was weak. I took it.’: Woman loses father to alcohol poisoning, ‘it is my right not to drink, please respect it’

“At 11, they draped a pale, unfamiliar version of my dad in white. ‘Are you alone?’ I watched a flurry of red and blue police lights dance across my ceiling. Alcohol poisoning. He never returned. You knew my past. Yet, you judged me when I turned down your drink. Did you know, I saw my father in my nightmares that night? Did you know, I was smiling, but dying on the inside? My trauma is more important than your right to a fun time.”

‘I’ve spent life forcing myself to not lose my memories of my mom. I wish I had more photos of her.’: Woman urges parents to take more pictures after losing mom to Ovarian Cancer, ‘one day it is all they will have left’

“If I were to die today, my son would have a collection of photos of me with Instagram filters. Get in front of the camera. Even if you’re on day 3 of dry shampoo and you don’t love the way your body looks. If you were to die today, your child wouldn’t care about any of that. They just want to see YOU, not the overly-filtered woman you post on social media. They want to see you the way they knew you.”

‘Yellow!’ Micah pointed to an adorable little chick with a big smile. Then, he spiked a 106 fever.’: Woman loses 3-year-old to Arthritis, ‘I am a mother, that will never change with time, space, or death’

“‘Are you SURE?’ I asked the doc, reading the report. ‘It would be like being struck by lightening TWICE. He’s fine.’ They were wrong. He was SICK. Sicker than any baby I’d seen. I walked into the PICU bathroom, shut the door. I screamed, moaned, punched the mirror, and cried the guttural tears of a mother who already knew how the story ends, because she’d lived it before. I was reliving my worst nightmare.”

‘How do you feel about being pregnant?’ I saw little eyes, fingers. ‘This must be a mistake.’ I was 100% knocked up.’: Teen mom loses boyfriend in car crash months before birth, graduates with 4.0

“I didn’t know whether to cry or laugh, be happy or sad. There was a real freaking baby in me! I had so many dreams and aspirations. Teen pregnancy was not in my plans. I dialed my father’s number. ‘Please don’t answer, please don’t answer.’ I took a deep breath. ‘Hello?’ I couldn’t speak. The worst was yet to come. I started bawling.”

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