“I was strapped down so I couldn’t move. ‘What if I feel him cut into me?’ My husband sat at my head and wiped away the tears that ran down my face.”
‘When she moved or kicked, the pain brought me to my knees. Maybe I had a stomach bug. Little did I know this was going to be the most terrifying day of my life.’
‘His demeanor changed. He told the nurse to get a doctor in there NOW. I started telling my mom I was sorry. I thought she was going to have to watch me die.’
“The anesthesiologist got in my face and told me I was leaving my children without a mother, that I was going to die on that table. He said, ‘This is as bad as it gets. Are you sure that’s the choice you want to make?’”
‘I couldn’t grasp how we went from a happy new family of 5 to our world being turned upside down! Our sweet, perfect baby girl went into brain surgery at just 9 days old.’
“In her 34 years of work, she had never seen a brain bleed so severe, didn’t know what kind of quality of life she would have, and said she would be in a vegetable state. She had a terrible bedside manner, and came off as harsh and unfeeling to me.”
‘The doctor came in and said, ‘I’m sorry.’ My husband and I were too in shock to say, ‘Why didn’t you call us?!’’
“I kept thinking to myself, ‘Is my child alive? Why can’t someone just tell me what’s going on?’”
‘My ‘friend’ said, ‘Come on, of all people, you should understand why someone would want to abort a cleft baby.”
“It was a shock. I didn’t know what I was looking at. There was clearly something wrong on his face, but I had never seen something like that before.”
‘My husband and I arrived at the hospital to await our baby’s arrival. I had no idea the very bed I was settling in would soon become my death bed.’
“I became frantic. Something terrible was happening. I told my husband to find help immediately. He needed to prepare himself that he may leave the hospital with a baby, but not his wife.”
‘For every woman unhappy with her postpartum marks, there is one wishing she had them.’ I once was her, the ‘one.’
“Some mama’s go home with only scars and no baby in their arms. For the ‘one’ wishing, hoping, praying for her miracle, this is for you.”
‘I can’t let you leave with that blood pressure reading.’ Her statement was so unexpected. It was too early. I had too much to do before the boys were born.
“Several hours later, the situation hadn’t improved, ‘We’re going to deliver you today,’ she said.”
‘As twins, we always dreamed of being pregnant together. We delivered on the same day, in the same hospital, by the same doctor, only 3 hours apart.’
“The babies were positioned in the same way, their weights were ounces off, and length was the same. Our doctor and the ultrasound technician could not believe their eyes!”
‘You are too skinny, not tall enough, and you have never delivered a baby before. You will have an unsuccessful triplet pregnancy.’ That’s what my doctor told me at my first ultrasound.
“’We need to get in the OR now,’ my doctor said. Then she turned to my mom. ‘You need to find Ryan. And pray. She has lost a lot of blood.’”
