“He tried to call me, but I was asleep and missed his call. Then my mom called. ‘Get to the hospital immediately,’ she said. I knew it was about him. I didn’t know the situation, so I got there in 4 minutes. My mind was racing.”
‘I love you,’ I whispered. I checked his arm, and noticed there was a needle mark. I don’t know how I held myself together from SCREAMING his name, praying he’d snap out of it.’
‘I want to go see her.’ He said through his tears. ‘I’m so blessed to have found her. I wouldn’t trade one moment I had with her.’ We all needed tissues. He misses her so much it hurts.’
“We asked him if he knew what today was. ‘Is it someone’s birthday?,’ he asked. We told him it was his anniversary – what would have been his and mom’s 69th. He started crying. ‘Would you like to go to the cemetery to take her some flowers?’ He sat, in silence.”
‘I heard you tell your kids you already ‘can’t wait until school starts’ because they’re driving you insane. Your face and tone were NOT joking.’
“To the annoyed mom at the store, I wasn’t eavesdropping. It can be so frustrating. I get it. But, I WISH I was doing that.”
‘His breath became labored. My husband caressed his cheek and told him we’d be okay. But his eye searched ours, as if to be sure.’
“He was ours. I knew exactly where I wanted to go. I wanted our first family picture to be of our entire family. We drove straight from the hospital to the cemetery.”
‘There is nothing normal about cemetery shopping for your baby. My daughter gasped, ‘Mama, it’s beautiful! Look at all the flowers.’ I saw no beauty.’
“At the time I didn’t understand why losing my daughter was a part of my story. It seemed so unfair and cruel. Only when I found the courage to no longer focus on my pain, but instead put my energy towards others, did I find meaning in my loss.”
‘I have searched for my fiance’s dad’s grave for 5 years. With absolutely no help from his biological family, we finally found it right when we were about to give up.’
“We searched the cemetery without any luck, even though we had the location of the grave, when an angel showed up, or at least that’s what I consider him.”
