death by suicide

‘Just 10 months after our divorce was finalized, AJ took his own life.’: Divorced widow navigates grief with rare identity

“Was I a widow? Or was I just the ex-wife? I was still the mother of his child, but we weren’t in an active relationship at this time of his death. What and who did this make me? I’d lost the man I loved, but I wasn’t granted extended bereavement time off work. There was no GoFundMe pages created to help with the unexpected funeral costs. His sudden death had me questioning everything, including my identity.”

‘After miscarriage 3, all the doctor said was, ‘Have you tried Adipex to lose weight? I sell it at my spa.’: Woman delivers rainbow baby on cusp of giving up, raises infertility awareness

“I left his office that day and immediately made an appointment at a completely different office. In a sense, I’d given up. To my surprise, I got the faintest positive on a cheap 88¢ Walmart test. Our hopes were at rock bottom, but we needed to believe in this little miracle.”

‘Days before his 24th birthday, we received messages. ‘Jake has not shown up for work or class.’ His roommates hadn’t seen him the night before.’: Woman details navigating grief after losing brother to suicide, sister and nieces to car accident

“Exactly 2 months later, my sister and two beautiful nieces were killed in a car accident. I heard phrases like ‘everything happens for a reason’ more times than I can count. I was told my sadness was a result of my lack of gratitude and my focusing on the negative. I was encouraged to move on, to forget, to focus on the positive and live in gratitude with love.”

‘Mommy, I don’t want you to die! Mommy, why did Kara kill herself? Didn’t she want to see her Mommy anymore?’: Woman spreads loved one’s ashes in Paris, ‘The city of love, the city you will now forever be a part of’

⁠“I stand there for a moment, clutching those two bottles in each hand, silver lids removed. I’m angry. I’m sad. ‘Why did you do this, Kara? Why?’ I need you to know, as devastating as The Decision has been for all of us, I will fulfill my promise to you. I bet you didn’t know it would force me back here, to a magical place I equally loathe and love. But here we are. It’s been 340 days.”

‘If you do this, Kara, you will not be able to undo it. It will be permanent, forever.’: Woman writes letter after cousin’s suicide, ‘You must not know the impact it’s going to have on the rest of us’

“If you do this, Kara, my daughter is going to ask me if she is going to die, too. I reply, ‘Everyone does die eventually.’ She is going to ask me if she will die soon or when she is bigger. I will have to admit mommies don’t actually know everything. If you do this, everyone who loves you will have their own heartbreaking story to tell about how they must now go on without you.”

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