“I recall Mel lying naked in front of a handful of doctors after they finished. Blood dripped from the sides of her hips; her stomach like a deflated balloon. But nothing shocked me as much as the next day.”
‘Nothing prepared me for my wife’s cesarean. Nothing. Reaching from a gaping hole in my beautiful wife’s stomach was the head of a bloody, powder white, child-like creature.’
‘I would think, ‘I have time for me later. It’s their time now.’ The doctor confirmed I wasn’t dying ‘at that moment’ and sent me home. I laid across the receptionist’s desk sobbing, begging them to help me.’
“Looking back, I saw it coming but thought I could power through it. Well, even the strong need a break, and because I wasn’t taking one, my body did the work for me. It was a slow-moving storm that turned into a hurricane, and I went down. Hard.”
‘I knew something was very wrong by the way the doctor was acting. The police came, and I couldn’t understand what was going on. Why were they there?’
“They wouldn’t let me fly with her, and looking back, I now know it’s because they didn’t know who had hurt her.”
‘I woke up being wheeled to the ICU in the worst pain imaginable. All I could silently mouth was ‘How’s my baby?’ I needed a doctor to believe me.’
“I was frustrated and angry. I know my body and I know that this isn’t a migraine!”
My child was stillborn, and I will never be the same
“You realize how profound and deafening silence can really be.”
‘Hey Dad, I haven’t been feeling too well. Could you take me to the doctor? I think I might have a sinus infection.’
“‘Sure baby, I’ll pick you up after school.’ My daughter’s sinus infection was anything but.”
‘How could a mother feel such strong sadness as the result of having a baby?’
“How could a mother ever dream of regretting her children, leaving her family, or even worse, taking her own life? It’s unfathomable.”
‘It has been a rough couple of weeks for Mason due to one TINY LITTLE FREAKING TICK!’
“It’s real, it’s scary, and it can most certainly happen to anyone.”
‘I lost the father of my children because he was bit by a tick’: Wife details illness of husband who had been sick twice in 26 years
“Within 12 hours after being admitted, he went from joking and talking to being in ICU on a ventilator.”
