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‘The security guard says, ‘Nope you can’t come in with that.’ It was not allowed unless I had my baby with me. Are you kidding me? The whole reason I have my pump is because I don’t have my baby.’ 

“Ariana Grande announced her tour would only allow clear plastic bags to keep everyone safe. As a breastfeeding mom, I immediately thought, ‘How am I going to fit my breast pump in a clear plastic bag?’ I called Guest Services. They verified I would be allowed. Time to head into the concert.”

‘Being 40 is too old for babies. My time is running out. I have lost count of the amount of times I have had this dream. It is so vivid and so real. I want to be a mother and in my dream I am.’

“In a previous life, with a previous partner, in a different country and a different decade, I was pregnant. I was pregnant for 10 weeks. But it was 10 weeks of feeling pregnant, of feeling hopeful, feeling excited, but also feeling cautious. And I was right to be cautious. I was given a due date, which we never got to.”

‘It was two days after the ultrasound when my body spontaneously began to miscarry. The ultrasound technician told me he couldn’t see a baby, a heartbeat, anything that should have been there at 12 weeks’ gestation.’

“I told myself the early miscarriage wasn’t worth being sad about. I had two friends at the time who had recently suffered late term losses and I knew that must be much more devastating to cope with. I had no right to cry when they had suffered so much more.”

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