fatigue

‘On my wedding day, I felt like I was going to throw up. I wanted to run the opposite direction. I knew deep down I was making a mistake. I should’ve listened to my gut.’

“I knew this was someone I couldn’t spend my life with. I kept thinking about all the people who came, who bought us gifts, all the money spent on the wedding. I couldn’t back out now. No one knew what was going on in my relationship. I tried to smile big and be excited. I drank a lot that day. I had to keep it private.”

‘I wondered why my doctor had such a grave tone when she gave me the diagnosis. This sounded like no big deal at all. There was finally a name for this mysterious illness! Boy was I wrong.’

“When I was riding the subway, I started to feel a little dizzy. I physically could not move. When the doors finally slid open, I spilled onto the platform packed with hundreds of commuters. My breathing and vision slowly returned. I finally realized this was serious. It had to be my priority.”

‘At 12 years old, symptoms began to manifest. I had joint pain in my knees and mouth sores on my gums. Food gave me belly aches. Aside from winter colds, I never was sick.’

“My parents were concerned. I had lost weight and they could see changes in me. I was 13 now, in the hospital to stabilize my 80-pound body. My parents were frustrated I followed ‘the rules.’ ‘If I thought the day of my diagnosis was life-shattering, this day would change the whole trajectory of how I lived my life.”

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