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‘You know what? Let’s ruin Allison’s life today.’ I couldn’t breathe. I screamed so deep my toes would curl.’: Mom turns to drinking to cope with grief after losing child to molar pregnancy

“My soul was going to jump out of my body and chase her to Heaven. Every night after my kids went to bed, I opened the bottles of whiskey. I walked in after my surgery with a bottle of Fireball. Jacob asked me, ‘Is this going to be a problem?’ I asked him why he asked me that. ‘Because you never buy alcohol to bring home. You only order drinks, not bottles.’ I’ll have many questions when I get to Heaven, but every one of them will wait until I get my girl in my arms.”

‘Can I take a candle bath and listen to soft music?’ My boy had a tough day at school. ‘Of course, baby.’: Mom learns children need mental breaks too, ‘we forget our kids need their own self-care’

“‘Yes, of course baby.’ I lit a few candles, got some orange juice and apples to snack on, and turned on music. He quickly calmed down, finding peace in whatever was going on in his little mind that I struggled to understand. I sat in the hallway, my head in my hands in tears. We all need a break at times, even our children.”

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