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‘David and I have been pregnant 8 times. ‘I just took a pregnancy test. It’s positive.’ I sat on the toilet staring at the positive test until my legs went numb. This was not a part of our plan.’

“Despite the odds, the ‘treatment’ was unsuccessful. Our little fighter continued to grow. Something in my gut didn’t feel right about a second injection, so I refused. I pushed her to keep looking. ‘Wait, what’s that?’ The doctor turned back towards the screen. I saw our little baby for the first time. I instantly wept.”

‘Is it weird having one white twin and one black twin?’ They are POLAR OPPOSITES! She is fair-skinned with bright blue eyes. He is dark skinned with brown eyes and black hair.’

“Nurses didn’t know how to approach me. I got statements like, ‘I’ve been a nurse 23 years and have never worked with twins like them.’ People are shocked. When we’re out in public I get questions. ‘Are they adopted?’ ‘Are they twins?’ ‘Do they have the same father?’ It’s amazing.”

‘We have an 8-month-old little boy. Are you able to take him?’ I was shaking as I held the phone. I said ‘yes’ instantly. ‘Ok, he should be there in the next hour.’

“Two caseworkers knocked on our door. I eagerly welcomed them as they placed this chunky, beautiful little boy into my arms. He was terrified. He had no idea where he was. ‘You need to know, foster care is about re-unification. The goal is to get these kids back home to family.’ My heart sunk. ‘Wait, but what about me?”

‘I used the bathroom. My heart sank. I dove into panic mode. I am actually in labor. I surrendered to the universe. ‘Please just take care of me, please allow her to live.’

“I had lost 20 pounds by 18 weeks. Then it happened, ‘code white’ over the intercom. Twelve doctors and nurses ran into our room scrambling around me. I will never forget the moment before my eyes closed. My Guardian Angel grandfather had my hands in his, as if he were in the room. ‘Please keep our miracle alive.’”

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