“Our world crumbled beneath us. ‘Why is my body not working?’ I thought I didn’t deserve to have a baby or experience motherhood. I didn’t know when or how, but I still had faith it would happen. I felt it deep within my soul.”
‘You have a 2% chance.’ My husband and I sat on the exam table, crying uncontrollably. I believed I wasn’t good enough to be a mother. I was bitter. ‘WHY is everyone else getting pregnant?’
‘At 19, I’d fallen in love with my childhood boyfriend. Who was dying. And he’d fallen in love with me. We valued every aspect of the cliché ‘live each day like it’s your last.’
“Dating consisted of watching movies from a remote-controlled bed. Holding a bucket while he got sick day in and day out. Wrapping him in warm blankets while working on my college assignments against the window. We vowed to do every thing, side-by-side, for every day after. The thought of that still wrecks me to my core.”
‘At first they thought both stuck, then they thought it was a chemical pregnancy, and then they weren’t sure if it was viable. Then I found blood. I was 100% sure I was losing the twins.’
“At first he was speechless, and then asked me if it was real. Next thing I know he is in tears, then I’m in tears.”
‘I delivered our sweet baby, all alone, at home. I thought this was the worst day of my life, but I would come to find this was only the beginning.’
“I had a small amount of fluid noted on my sheets. The nurses assured me it must have been an accident since I had no pain. I listened and didn’t think anything of it. Huge mistake.”
‘I went into sheer panic. I knew something was seriously wrong.’ Mom recounts emotional twin birth after infertility battle
“I felt a gush and immediately thought, ‘Oh my gosh, my water broke!’ I felt around and my hand was covered in blood.”
‘I would have taken her place if I could’: Husband’s heartbreaking account of their ‘devastating’ infertility battle
“I felt helpless.”
‘We have to go through IVF. The price on the paper was over $17,000. Where would we get that money?’
“We got in the car and just stared at one another. How would this be possible?”
