“Last night before bed, after our prayers and book, I asked if you knew what the best day of my life was.”
‘Holding you in my arms with your feet dangling by my knees, I was painfully aware it was the last time I’d be physically able. The last time I carried you, my first baby.’
‘My leg is tingling!’ The morphine wore off. My heartbeat stopped, then my baby’s. I blacked out.’: Mom suffers from PTSD after child loss, now pregnant with rainbow baby, ‘I will always love her’
“I was so close to death. Around 2 a.m. my labor completely kicked in. I fell back asleep until I felt something ‘down there.’ I moved my hand and felt my daughter’s head. ‘They couldn’t find a heartbeat.’ Not a dry eye ever left my room. I saw her still heart, the same heart chambers that were beating so perfectly just a month before. My baby girl was gone.”
‘I’m going to miss him, but I’m glad he’s feeling better.’ This butterfly would make it to the top of the hill if it was the last thing he did.
“‘Butterflies fly mom. This butterfly can’t do that,’ was his obvious statement to me, asking him not to do what I inherently knew what was coming…”
‘I worried my wonderful southern knight would leave me because I couldn’t give him the family he wanted. I started to break down, slowly. I felt so alone.’
“We officially got the great news and shouted it loud for all to hear. We were on cloud 9. Everything was fun and exciting. Until it wasn’t.”
‘I got out of bed, got dressed, and left my apartment with no intentions of ever returning. I then pulled out my phone to request an Uber to a bridge in my area.’
“I began walking onto the bridge, passing a sign that held the suicide prevention lifeline number on it. ‘They can’t help me,’ I thought.”
‘My mom had a normal pregnancy with me, nothing was out of the ordinary. After I was born, my pediatrician noticed something wasn’t right. I was blue in color and had low blood oxygen.’
“I embrace my scar because it’s a part of who I am. It’s a reminder of everything I have been through. I was a walking miracle.”
‘How could I buy a house with a shared driveway next to a sister I didn’t even know I had?!’
“Oh my God, it’s her, Lance! Stella and I are jumping around and screaming, ‘It’s her! It’s her!’”
‘If you have to move 7,000 miles to get your miracle, IT IS WORTH IT!’
“I’ve never felt so many emotions at once in my life, then I saw them pulling in the driveway. I could do nothing but cry. I was finally able to hold my baby.”
‘The moment my sister finally held her rainbow baby after suffering the tragic back to back losses of two stillborn sons.’
“She was beyond devastated when she was told she could never carry again. That’s when my wife said she would carry a baby for her.”
‘She made it look like giving birth at 50 was easy. Our son was created, frozen in time, thawed, and then grown in his grandmother’s womb.’
“My heart began to race. Here was this woman, my mother-in-law, risking her life to give me the best gift of my life. I tried to hold back my tears.”
