motherhood journey

On the left, mom holds her one-year-old daughter at her birthday party, on the right, same girl looks intently into the camera while her mom takes her photo

‘At 18 months, we worried about her lack of speech. ‘Read to her.’ She would pull the book away, mad I was touching it in the first place.’: Mom learns to accept daughter’s autism diagnosis

“I allowed myself to mourn what I thought our life was going to look like. Then I told myself I needed to move forward because that beautiful brown-eyed girl is counting on me to be her mother. To advocate for her, to fight for her, and to speak for her until she could speak herself.”

‘Why the heck not?’ I had this crazy intense urge to be pregnant, but I didn’t want another kid. ‘Omg, I could help another family have a child!’: Mom of 2 shares journey to surrogacy

“The idea bounced around in the back of my mind, on again off again, not really sure if it was even there. But it was; the idea stuck, and it didn’t leave. I realized I had a gift, this ability to provide a safe and perfect place for those tiny little cells to grow into a living, breathing baby. I knew in my heart I wanted to share it.”

‘Why did you even have this child, Kelsi? You’re failing him.’ I heard voices tell me to plan my death or my baby would die, and it would be my fault.’: Brave mom of 4 candidly shares journey with postpartum psychosis

“I’d close my eyes and see myself holding my son’s lifeless body. I couldn’t get that image out of my head or decipher whether it was real or not. I wanted him to have a life full of love and fulfillment, and realized my only escape was to end my life. Stained with tears and folded neatly into my bible, I wrote my goodbye letter.”

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