“I felt like everyone was passing me by and I was stagnant. I had no control over my body. Then I got a message that changed my life forever. I literally screamed. I was hopeful, excited, optimistic. Slowly, red flags started popping up.”
‘Please, I’ll give anything.’ Hands shaking, I glanced down at the test. Tears silently rolled. When we prepared for bed, my phone started ringing. My stomach dropped. She’d never called before.’
‘I was over 400 pounds. I felt like a failure as a woman and wife. I lost jobs because I didn’t ‘look’ the part. When I’d walk my dog, people would scream things at me out their car window.’
“I had crazy mood swings and extreme fatigue. Yet, I ate super clean and worked out every day. I couldn’t lose a pound and would yawn through my workouts. I knew something else was wrong.”
‘Doctors told me I was ‘lying.’ I hadn’t started my period. Before I took the birth control, I took a pregnancy test. It was POSITIVE!? We bought 5 more tests. All of them were positive!’
“I was having vivid, strange dreams. A neighbor said, ‘Are you pregnant?’ I said ‘no’ and cried. A switch flipped in me. I became crazy emotional. I was having day dreams about drilling a hole in my head or cutting it off. I went to doctor after doctor. They all said that it was because of my weight.”
‘Would one make it? Would any make it? Or would all make it? He gave us the news and I started crying.’
“I could not believe it. I was sobbing and couldn’t believe this was real life.”
‘I love you, but it’s really important I have a blood child.’ I tried for 10 years. I saw my dreams go up in smoke.’: Woman with PCOS, Endometriosis survives near-death experience, gets pregnant after decade of trying
“I was in and out of consciousness. The doctor grabbed this huge syringe and needle (I mean HUGE). I thought he was going to stick it in my stomach, but he put it somewhere else…inside me, through my cervix and into my stomach. I just knew I was about to have to terminate my baby. They weren’t even giving me a choice. They had to cut me wide open. I had a C-section scar but no baby to show for it.”
