PPA

‘That’s the most disgusting thing I’ve ever seen.’ Sharing twin bump photos was my first shock. Then the babies actually arrived.’: Mom embraces postpartum belly after twins, encourages us to ‘love ourselves’ no matter our size or shape

“My husband was on military duty, and I was all alone. He’d joked with me the weeks before that I was definitely having twins because I was already showing, and he was right. My body was and is completely different. I have these 2 new precious lives, but also this brand-new belly, stretch marks, and lose skin. As a fitness trainer, I no longer ‘fit the part’ with chiseled abs and a six pack.”

‘The baby suddenly gagged, then violently vomited what seemed to be a weeks’ worth of breast milk. I held her up, lifeless.’: Mom suffers from PTSD, anxiety after traumatic event with 5-week-old daughter

“I immediately told my oldest to dial 9-1-1. She was trembling. I realized she was unable to call; she dialed 1-9-9 in utter fear. My baby was unresponsive. Then, we saw her move. She had aspirated on breast milk. I drowned my baby. This is all my fault. I wasn’t ok.”

How I manage my postpartum anxiety

“I had to find ways to keep the intense thoughts out of my head while caring for my son, along with keeping communication open with my husband.”

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