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‘I can do this.’ I’d get my baggies, needle, tie off my hand, and in the heroin went. ‘Just not today.’ I was using in secret. All day, every day.: Woman overcomes drug addiction, now works as nurse fighting ‘the opiate epidemic’

“I’d snort a bunch of pills before a party, drink, pass out, and wake up completely unaware of what happened. My boyfriend was suspicious, but I covered up my drug use. That was before the needle. I said I’d never use one. Needles were for junkies, and I was not that. But my dealer shot me up. It was the most amazing, intense rush of warm, pure happiness I’d ever experienced, and I’d chase that feeling for years. There are so many times I should’ve been arrested, should’ve overdosed, should’ve died, but I didn’t.”

‘He wanted to get meth, so we did. I’d been clean for a month. I took a pregnancy test. There was a tiny faint line.’: Addicted couple gets clean after learning of pregnancy, says their son is their ‘saving grace’

“I was so excited listening that drugs didn’t cross my mind. I was terrified after he came I’d get bad off again, but there was no way I was going to let someone else raise my baby. We used each other as support. Every night we’d lay down and listen to the baby’s heartbeat.”

‘We came home from Disney and my daughter threw up a little. 20 hours later, she was dead.’: Mom loses daughter to Sepsis, performs ‘acts of kindness’ to honor daughter’s ‘light’

“I remember the doctor telling me he tried everything, but couldn’t restart her heart. I had to make the choice if they should continue or ‘let her go’. I said the hardest word I’ve ever had to say: okay. As they stopped compressions and the beeping slowed to a stop, I sang, ‘You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey.’ In that moment, I refused to let her light stop shining. I’d have to find a way to keep it alive.”

‘I picked up a needle and got loaded before I got married. I thought I could do it once. I was wrong.’: Man thought he ‘deserved a treat’ on his wedding day, wife has miscarriage while he waits for treatment

“After 5 days of being in detox, I called my wife. I told her how excited I was to be clean and live a good life with her. After I was done talking, she told me she didn’t want to see me again, and I wasn’t allowed to see her daughter again, and hung up. I was so hurt.”

‘Gunner was born a happy, healthy, beautiful baby boy. And we all lived happily ever after. I wish.’: Mom overcomes years of addiction to regain custody of son

“Did I mention I was dating another drug dealer? No? Oh, I was dating another drug dealer. You can possibly guess what happens next right? ‘I’m pregnant. I wanted to abort the pregnancy, so I could continue using as much as my selfish little body could handle, and I didn’t want a baby making it any more difficult. Hey, we’re trying to be honest here, right? Don’t judge me yet.”

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