“I immediately started CPR and called 911 while my husband tried to keep the boys out of the room. Things escalated quickly. Before I knew it, our road was blocked by police, firefighters, and an ambulance. All these people lent us their hands in attempt to save our daughter.”
‘The doctor intensively listened to her heartbeat – troubled by what he heard. We realized the severity of the situation. Immediately dropping to my knees in despair, we moved into the hospital.’
‘The baby suddenly gagged and then violently vomited what seemed to be a weeks’ worth of breast milk. I held her up and she was lifeless. She was unresponsive.’
“I immediately told my oldest to dial 9-1-1. She was trembling. I was trying to figure out if the baby was breathing. I realized my oldest was unable to call; she dialed 1-9-9 in utter fear.”
‘We took the kids Trick-Or-Treating and had fun being together. Little did we know, we would take our last family photo that day.’
“Avery seemed to be coming down with something. All he wanted to do was snuggle and nap. He had a low grade fever but nothing alarming so we put him to bed like we always did.”
‘She deserves to know she has a guardian angel watching over her. Our family was concerned I got pregnant too quickly after such a tragic passing, but she was everything we needed.’
“I couldn’t stop screaming and yelling his name, begging him to wake up. I felt guilt knowing I didn’t breastfeed him. I have panic attacks, a lot, over what should be minor things.”
‘My son was 4 days away from 8 months old. Never one health concern, happy and brighter than the sun itself. I was in total bliss. Then, just like that, it was gone.’
“I remember running into the ER asking about my son in between sobs. The doctor came in, looked me in the eyes and said, ‘I’m sorry.’”
‘How could a perfectly healthy baby just stop breathing? How could I lose my baby like that? Why would this happen to me?’
“I turned to check on him and I couldn’t see him breathing, so I placed my hand on his cheek. It was ice cold. I realized instantly he was gone.”
‘I will never forget the sound from my husband when we found our beautiful little boy unresponsive. I would do anything to go back in time.’
“It still doesn’t register that a perfectly healthy, loved and happy baby would just pass away. We did everything right. This had to be the worst nightmare ever.”
‘As we entered our street, the driver said, ‘Which house is it?’ Then he stopped mid-sentence. ‘Oh… never mind, you’ve got quite a crowd waiting.’’
“I looked out the ambulance window and started bawling as I saw the crowd so excitedly yelling for Ellie. I couldn’t help but think about heaven, and how I could taste a small glimpse of what it will be like.”
Heartbreaking account of ‘perfect’ rainbow baby’s suspected sudden infant death syndrome
“Our world came crashing down around us. I saw him pale and staring at the ceiling blankly. I grabbed him and there was no reaction from him.”
