‘Positive? How is that possible? Our youngest only 10 months old, I stared blankly at the pregnancy test.’: Mom candidly details journey with 3 under 3

“Oh, God. I was going to have 4 kids, 3 under age 3. How was I possibly going to handle two toddlers AND an infant while coaching our eldest through virtual learning? I called my friend of 20 years, shaking and sick to my stomach with the test in my hand: ‘I don’t think I can do it.’ She said simply, ‘You can. And you will.'”

‘My husband said, ‘It’s a girl!’ I was terrified. How could I connect with such a huge mother wound?’: Girl mom, child trauma survivor urges ‘you can break generational patterns’

“Finding out I was pregnant was an initial shock. I had vowed I would never have children. How could I mother children if I didn’t have a mother example to rely on? After the initial shock, I became ecstatic about the possibilities – until I realized I had a 50-50 chance of having a daughter!”

‘I sobbed, ‘What have we done?’ We unpacked the U-Haul, no friends in our new town.’: Daughter chases dreams with help from father’s last words before suicide

“I was leaving everything behind for a childhood fantasy, a job in a K-12 campus I’d never even seen, and a house I’d only looked at online. I cried on the road, wondering if I was making the biggest mistake of my life. Then I heard my dad’s voice echo in my mind from those 31 years ago: ‘You can be anything you want, anywhere in the world.’ And then I lost him. To suicide.”

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