“I felt the right side of my body get heavy. My knee gave out, and a lightheaded feeling like a strong high took over. But I was convinced I must be okay.”
Edited By Peter Lim“I ended up getting pregnant with Josh’s baby in late October. I remember Josh looking at me once we read the pregnancy test and he asked, ‘What will Riley think of me?’ I was completely heartbroken. I couldn’t believe he would say those words to me. What about me, what about our baby?”
Edited By Devon Ledbetter“My heart was shattered the day I was released from the hospital without my son. I prayed my sweet boy would be in caring hands.”
Edited By Sonia Beltz“In my eyes, once I gave birth, Josh would see his son and remember the love he had for me. When Josh left the hospital the day Riley was born, it ripped my heart out. This was confirmation that the family I had always pictured was not going to happen.”
Edited By Devon Ledbetter
“Even the tooth fairy is part of the mental load I carry. The behind-the-scenes of motherhood that no one sees, only expects. You see, when I say everything falls on me, I mean it.”
Edited By Sophia San Filippo
“I looked around and took inventory of the couples we once knew. The ones we shared drinks with. That we laughed with. That we played pool with. And they were all still doing all of the things, sitting with the people they love. And I was sitting with a memory.”
Edited By Sophia San Filippo
“A good mom stretched herself thin for the sake of her child. A good mom juggled all the things with a smile on her face and a clean home. A good mom did what was best for her family. But I was a part of the family…and it was pushing me into a really dark and scary place.”
Edited By Devon Ledbetter
“During the early stages of the pregnancy, every physician we met asked us if we wanted to take our triplet pregnancy down to a singleton, as the risk was extremely high. Every time our answer was the same: ‘NO!'”
Edited By Devon Ledbetter
“When the IV was placed we snuggled up together for a while, crying. Macie looked up at me and said, ‘No mama, you don’t cry, just me.’ I wish I had been able to hold back the tears for her.”
Edited By Irini Orihuela
“My parents couldn’t understand my crippling depression because I could always ‘pick myself up.’ Now, I was lying in a twin-size bed with my 2-year-old, plotting what to do next.”
Edited By Peter Lim
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Edited By Sophia San Filippo
