‘I wasn’t ready for today to be the day. I hope you weren’t scared this morning when you left.’: Daughter missing mom in Heaven says she left ‘without saying goodbye’

“To My Mom on the Day She Left For Heaven:

Today you caught an early flight to Heaven and left without saying goodbye.

I wasn’t really ready for today to be the day, I didn’t want any day to be the day if I’m honest.

I hope you weren’t scared this morning when you left and I hope you were surrounded by others that could give you hugs and tell you they were Heaven bound too.

I was scared when you left today. I was surrounded with hugs and everyone telling me how you finally made it home and I was happy for you but I just miss you and I needed you here to tell me it’s all going to be okay because you are the only one who can help make it okay.

I can’t imagine what your views were like and what it must have felt like to have your cancer gone, to feel good again for the first time in a long time and have the heavy burdens of all this sickness lifted.

My view down here looked different too today. I’m searching for you, wondering which way you went to get to Heaven, wondering you are still just off in the distance above the clouds. I’ve kept my eyes on the sky all day, just looking, trying to catch a glimpse of you.

I hope you were greeted by family and old friends that you’ve missed for so long. I bet those hugs felt so good, I know some of them you had been longing to see for a while.

I’m down here missing your hugs already and today when you left is when I needed your hug the most, nobody’s hug can compare. It’s your hug I’ll be longing to have for a while.

I hope you’ve been adjusting well to your new home and as much as it hurts to say I hope you are making wonderful memories.

Most of my memories since the day I was born were of you and I and now that you are gone, I can only hold onto the old memories so I’ll cling to those.

I just wish I could call and ask if you made it there okay and most importantly to let you know that I’m okay, so you won’t be worried.

I know they say you can’t take anything with you when you go but I want you to know that today when you left for Heaven you took a piece of my heart with you and left a part of you here with me forever.”

This story was written by Nikki Pennington of Grief To Hope with Nikki Pennington. The article originally appeared here. Follow her on Instagram here and Twitter here. Submit your story here, and subscribe to our best love stories here.