“The tears began to well up as I spoke to the staff, thinking about my two triplets who passed away within two months of birth. A strange sense of peace swept over me.”

“The tears began to well up as I spoke to the staff, thinking about my two triplets who passed away within two months of birth. A strange sense of peace swept over me.”
“You used the fear of trying to parent my newborn babies alone to destroy every particle of confidence in my being. I remember calling my sister sobbing because I was so overwhelmed with three crying babies that all needed me.”
“My heroin addict never hangs up the phone without telling me he loves me. My heroin addict thanks me with tears in his eyes when I visit him in jail. My heroin addict apologizes when he can’t control his addiction.”
“Our doctor joked about the possibility of seeing triplets on the ultrasound. I was dizzy, so very dizzy. I laid down on the table and exposed my stomach. I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready for my heart to be broken again. He put the wand on my stomach, and I knew instantly. I couldn’t see a baby. My doctor was quiet. I told him there was nothing there. It wasn’t a question. I knew.”
“They passed away within two months of being born, never making it to their first birthday.”
“My heart hurts. I feel ashamed and guilty that my daughter was fighting for her life underwater, drowning, and I didn’t even see it.”
“I am strong and I’m fighting anxiety daily. I am learning more about myself and my needs as a mom. I am brave. And I am not alone.”
“He didn’t guarantee a successful pregnancy, but it was worth a try. I had seen so many negative pregnancy tests in the past that it was almost impossible for me to see the positive in this one. ‘Triplets, you are having triplets!’ And then he says, ‘the fourth sac will probably vanish since I didn’t hear a heartbeat.’”
“You don’t know me, but I took care of you when you gave birth. I remember Parker and Abby, and of course Peyton.”
“I was told it was unlikely we would be able to conceive with the cyst, because the other ovary also had several small cysts as well.”