“In my eyes, once I gave birth, Josh would see his son and remember the love he had for me. When Josh left the hospital the day Riley was born, it ripped my heart out. This was confirmation that the family I had always pictured was not going to happen.”
“Even the tooth fairy is part of the mental load I carry. The behind-the-scenes of motherhood that no one sees, only expects. You see, when I say everything falls on me, I mean it.”
“During the early stages of the pregnancy, every physician we met asked us if we wanted to take our triplet pregnancy down to a singleton, as the risk was extremely high. Every time our answer was the same: ‘NO!'”
“Channeling my anger and pain into making a difference has shown Macie the bad things that happen to us don’t have to define us. We get to decide that.”
“My parents couldn’t understand my crippling depression because I could always ‘pick myself up.’ Now, I was lying in a twin-size shelter bed with my 2-year-old, plotting what to do next.”
“If you wouldn’t question someone’s balding head then you shouldn’t question a child’s flapping arms either.”
“Something needed to be done.”
“We get all the questions: ‘Are you Mormon?’ ‘Are you Catholic?’ ‘Do you have a TV?’ ‘Are they all from one dad?’ ‘Are they all yours?’ My favorite is, ‘You know how that happens, right?’ To which I respond, ‘Sure do! And clearly I’m super good at it!'”
“Life is strange. I didn’t simply wake up one morning thinking caring for dying babies would be a good idea. But know what? We wouldn’t have it any other way.”
“They say having kids will test the relationship in ways you could never imagine, but when your child is thrown a diagnosis from hell, your relationship can fall apart just as quickly as that diagnosis was given.”
