“When I checked my eyes in the mirror, I couldn’t stop laughing.”
- Love What Matters
- Children
“When I checked my eyes in the mirror, I couldn’t stop laughing.”
“I allowed myself to mourn what I thought our life was going to look like. Then I told myself I needed to move forward because that beautiful brown-eyed girl is counting on me to be her mother. To advocate for her, to fight for her, and to speak for her until she could speak herself.”
“Over the next two years, one man was filling my heart, while another was hellbent on tearing it apart. My ex restlessly continued this stressful family battle full of dirty, malicious, and vindictive tactics worthy of a dark Netflix series.”
“If your ultimate goal is to love a child and create a family, it won’t matter when you finally have the child you were meant to have all along.”
“When she was losing weight, it was because I tried to force breastfeeding too long. When she couldn’t bring her hands together, it was because I had swaddled her longer than I should’ve. When she couldn’t crawl, it was because I didn’t do enough tummy time.”
“I ended up getting pregnant with Josh’s baby in late October. I remember Josh looking at me once we read the pregnancy test and he asked, ‘What will Riley think of me?’ I was completely heartbroken. I couldn’t believe he would say those words to me. What about me, what about our baby?”
“My heart was shattered the day I was released from the hospital without my son. I prayed my sweet boy would be in caring hands.”
“In my eyes, once I gave birth, Josh would see his son and remember the love he had for me. When Josh left the hospital the day Riley was born, it ripped my heart out. This was confirmation that the family I had always pictured was not going to happen.”
“Even the tooth fairy is part of the mental load I carry. The behind-the-scenes of motherhood that no one sees, only expects. You see, when I say everything falls on me, I mean it.”
“During the early stages of the pregnancy, every physician we met asked us if we wanted to take our triplet pregnancy down to a singleton, as the risk was extremely high. Every time our answer was the same: ‘NO!'”