“‘I’m sorry, I’m not detecting a heartbeat.’ What followed is a blur. I recall Reece shouting NO repeatedly, but I stayed silent. The world seemed to stop, and I felt like I was watching myself on a TV screen.”
- Love What Matters
- Grief
- Loss of Child
“‘I’m sorry, I’m not detecting a heartbeat.’ What followed is a blur. I recall Reece shouting NO repeatedly, but I stayed silent. The world seemed to stop, and I felt like I was watching myself on a TV screen.”
“I dropped to my knees, tears pouring down my cheeks. I couldn’t breathe. When my husband came through the door, I ran to him with pure excitement. This was it. We were finally going to be parents and I was on cloud 9!”
“I looked up at Dylan and we both started sobbing, all while the remaining pieces of my pregnancy left my body.”
“Protecting a woman’s autonomy, her legal right to control her body, is imperative. I could have been a contributing statistic to our growing maternal mortality rate.”
“I wanted my baby so badly. I wanted his ten little toes. I wanted to see those blue eyes and the thick black hair he had to have. But then I thought of him watching me waste away as I watched my own father waste away, knowing I had chosen the same fate for him.”
“I had visions of three beautiful girls dancing throughout my house. Two big sisters meeting their little sister in the hospital. Everything I ever hoped and dreamed for crashed to the ground.”
“I fell asleep from the pain and woke up feeling like I had been hit by a bus. I would never, ever wish this upon anyone.”
“They were calling me a murderer, even when it meant ignoring all the medical professionals and simply allowing myself to die along with Finley. My soul was on fire. And I was angry. No one owes you their story. But I am giving you mine in the hopes it opens your eyes.”
“Even now, I hear people say things like, ‘Will you ever get over it?’ I could have easily given up at that moment. I could have quit, right there and then. But I knew that if her life ever meant anything, I would need to keep all my promises to her.”
“I think of her every single day. Good days, bad days, fun days, boring days, weekdays, weekends, holidays, and birthdays.”