“I’m sharing this as I lay in bed alone, 48 hours after being released from the ER with the diagnosis of Covid-19.
This is going to be how most of my friends and family find out, which may seem impersonal. But there’s a sense of shame that comes with the invasiveness of the screening process that has made me feel judged and embarrassed.
How did this happen?
I was compliant. I stayed home. I self quarantined early out of precaution. I only went out three times within the last two weeks, all for essentials. I thought I followed the rules well enough.
I haven’t seen my husband or dog for days. I can barely walk to the bathroom. At times my fever makes me delirious. It’s hard to breathe. I’m so exhausted that I can’t even hold my phone up and instead am using text to talk.
I just keep thinking ‘people are dying from this’ as I see people online bragging about sneaking out to see their friends.
You might think you’re being safe, but I thought that too. Someone that I came in contact with wasn’t. That’s why I’m sick. Someone didn’t wash their hands or cover their mouth. They didn’t avoid public places. They carried on like normal.
So now I sit here wheezing, dehydrated, feeling worse by the hour, knowing there’s nothing more doctors can do for me. The only thing I can do is wait it out and hope my symptoms remain moderate.
You might think it won’t happen to you, and maybe you’re right. Maybe you’ll be lucky. But I wasn’t. Maybe now that it’s touched your lives by happening to someone you know, you will take it seriously. I really hope you do. I don’t wish this fear and illness onto anyone.”
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