“Part of me was joking, but the other part was serious. I hadn’t been able to protect my three babies before him. How was I going to protect this perfect human in the middle of a pandemic? I was terrified.”
- Love What Matters
- Children
“Part of me was joking, but the other part was serious. I hadn’t been able to protect my three babies before him. How was I going to protect this perfect human in the middle of a pandemic? I was terrified.”
“I walked up to the window and began to cry. I put my hands against the glass, and my birth mom, my sister, and my grandmother met them with their own. For the first time in my life, I touched people who shared my blood.”
“This wasn’t right. I was supposed to be blissfully loading my baby into the car, excited to get him home. Instead, my 5-pound baby, was to have eye surgery at 1 week old.”
“They pulled her out, and I was unfazed. ‘Do you want to hold her?’ I said no, shocked at my own response. I was so overwhelmed I just couldn’t bear the thought.”
“The next time your kid is behaving like an a-hole, get on their level.”
“It was painful. But the way his tiny fingers brushed my arm, fingers, and breasts while feeding made me never want to give it up.”
“If you use tampons then you run the risk of contracting it.”
“What I wouldn’t give for his biggest worry in life to be a grazed knee or his sandwich cut the wrong way. He is my light and my strength.”
“I downloaded the photos of the day you were put to rest and promptly hid them in a folder on my laptop. I wasn’t ready. Today I went looking. I needed to see the reminders of your impact.”
“I kept these thoughts and feelings tucked away like my shameful little secret while I put on a brave face. Clearly, they must have forgotten to install my mother’s instinct.”