“I went into shock, paralyzed by what I’d just seen. All of a sudden, I heard a noise I couldn’t recognize. It was coming from me. A deep, loud, moaning scream; the sound of grief and disbelief. We were wheeled up to delivery and I remember a man telling my husband, ‘Good luck and congratulations,’ as he thought we were going to deliver a healthy baby. Never in my wildest dreams did I think we’d ever have to pick an urn for one of our children.”
“There are kids out there that can’t even have candy. As a kid with a nut allergy, I really encourage everyone to put out the teal pumpkin.”
“I was so excited listening that drugs didn’t cross my mind. I was terrified after he came I’d get bad off again, but there was no way I was going to let someone else raise my baby. We used each other as support. Every night we’d lay down and listen to the baby’s heartbeat.”
“Please, do not say you know what it’s like having twins. You don’t. I Promise.”
“This picture-perfect moment is far from perfect.”
“You’re going to take the easy way out every now and then. And they’ll notice.”
“Look at the devastation left behind that is my family and tell me it isn’t time for change. Imagine if this was your family…”
“It’s not far-fetched for you to assume I would want to leave my spouse or that he would want to part ways with me; we drive each other crazy.”
“I knew this was bad, I felt like that same 15-year-old girl having to make the decision whether or not to let my mom live.”
“I was scared to care for him in fear of acting on one of these thoughts. But I also had a hard time letting go of him for even 10 minutes to give myself a break.”
