“I never thought at the age of 33, I’d be diagnosed with ADHD.
But it’s not like I didn’t know I had it.
Even Google told me.
But I thought, could it be that easy?
There can’t be something that labels it and can fix me?
I spent so many years trying to tone down who I was.
I had to work so hard to get results in anything: tricks and mind games and timers and everything to keep me on track.
I’d always fall short and do everything last minute.
I’d sweat every time I’d tell a story because I just knew people would roll their eyes when I couldn’t stay focused trying to finish it.
I’d procrastinate on important tasks and think I was just so lazy, so why should I try?
Actually, many people with ADHD feel like this.
They never believe their hard work is because they put in hard work; they think it’s a fluke or good luck.
They can’t celebrate successes because there’s always something else they have to do or something they haven’t done.
I had Imposter Syndrome with everything I did, even getting a diagnosis.
Telling people I’m on medication, I felt like they look at me like I’m just trying to get a cheap high or that I’m childish.
Again, an imposter.
Then I met a psychiatrist who told me, ‘You know Imposter Syndrome is a symptom of ADHD?’
It took me so long to believe that I have ADHD and for friends and family to acknowledge I have it too.
And you know what?
I don’t even need them to believe me.
I know my truth, and the proof is in the pudding.
Left is me off medication; right is me on medication.”
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