“This is infertility.
It’s not pretty and it’s not picture perfect. It is raw and it is real, and there is no hiding the emotions you feel at moments like this.
Because let me tell you…this sucks. It sucks big time, and there is no denying it.
I took these photos last night after finding myself at one of my lowest points. Just earlier the same day these were taken, I was completely happy and joyful, but yet just hours later I found myself here.
There is no sugar coating it, and there is definitely no hiding any of my feelings at this point in time.
I am putting myself in a very vulnerable place sharing this with you all, but I think it is so important to show every side of this journey we are on – both the good and the bad.
Infertility is unpredictable. It shows no mercy, and it gives no promises.
One minute you’re fine, the next you’re crying harder than you ever have in your entire life.
These waves of emotion come without warning, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it when they decide to hit.
When you make the decision to walk down this road, you’re putting yourself in a position where failure is always an option, and unfortunately you have no control over what happens most of the time.
You hope and you pray and you cross your fingers that everything will work out in the end, but sometimes it just doesn’t. That is the reality here.
I try my hardest to always put on a brave face and look towards the positive, but sometimes this life just becomes too heavy and I break.
I’m only human at the end of the day, and I can only take so much.
And you know what…it really is okay not to always be okay.”
This story was submitted to Love What Matters by Mackenzie Eckinger of Ohio and originally appeared here. You can follow her journey on Instagram here and here. Submit your own story here, and be sure to subscribe to our free email newsletter for our best stories, and YouTube for our best videos.
Read more from Mackenzie here:
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Infertility Is Just As Hard For Husbands As It Is For Their Wives
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Dear Infertility, You Will Never Stop Me From Trying For My Miracle
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