‘Without you, I’d be the same size I was 6 years ago. Without you, there’d be no 3 a.m. panic. Without you, life would be how it used to be.’: Mom says without her children ‘I wouldn’t be me’

“Without you, there’d be no dishes in sink.

There’d be no dirty laundry.

There’d be no extra drawings on the wall.

Without you, I’d be the same size I was 6 years ago.

There would be no wider hips.

No stretch marks.

No bags under my eyes.

No hair in a bun.

Without you, there’d be no 3 a.m. panic

No sleepless nights.

No postnatal depression anxiety and depression.

No fights with daddy of who does more.

No interrupted conversation.

No scrambling for date nights and bribing someone to watch you so we can love each other again.

Without you, life would be how it used to be.

But without you, I wouldn’t know love.

I wouldn’t know the deepest kind of love.

Without you, there’d be no heart explode feeling when I watch you sleep.

No endless laughter when you try to say truck and get it wrong.

No smiles that make my cheeks hurt.

Without you I wouldn’t have bear hugs that touch my soul.

Kisses that feel like shooting stars.

And snuggles that make me feel whole.

Without you, I wouldn’t know the strength my body has.

The love my heart could build.

The power my mind can yield.

Without you, I wouldn’t be me.

Some days I wonder what it would be like without you, and even if I could have the sleep ins, the perfect body, the cleanest house, the extravagant date nights, I’d still want you. I’d still choose you.

Because without you, There isn’t the best kind of laughter, the best kind of happiness, the best kind of love.

Because without you, there’d be no joy.

So, even though there are days I’ll wonder if it would all have been easier without you, I know that I’d take the harder, the chaos, the exhaustion, all of it, because without you, there is no me.”

Courtesy Laura Mazza

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