“It was our very first ultrasound after we found out we were pregnant! I was elated with joy and anticipation. My beta levels were high, so I know we either had one super strong baby growing in my womb or both of our embryos took.
My heart was racing as my Infertility Doctor began our ultrasound. I was overwhelmed with many emotions. During our time at the Fertility clinic I had had several ultrasounds, but for the first time we would actually see a heartbeat in my womb. We had been waiting a long time for this moment. It didn’t take long before our doctor shared with us the big news:
‘Congratulations, I see two heartbeats!!!’
Ryan and I were absolutely over the moon. TWINS!!! We have always wanted twins and felt for a long time that God would give us twins. I was so happy I don’t think I could have smiled any bigger. Not to mention, Ryan and I are both twins, so I kept thinking, “we can handle twins.” JOY was all over my face and we were succumbed with God’s complete faithfulness. Wow.
Our Doctor continued the ultrasound. Suddenly, the demeanor in her face changed. My joy quickly turned into worry. I grabbed Ryan’s hand, as I feared something was wrong with our babies. I could feel my heart rate increase. The palms of my hands were sweaty as I interlaced my fingers with Ryan’s. It felt like it was taking forever for her to share with us what she was seeing in my womb.
Then, finally, very calmly, she said:
‘Well, it looks like there is a third heartbeat.’
There was absolute silence.
‘What?!?!….No????’
I looked at our nurses, as I was experiencing my own state of shock. ‘Is this for real?’ I kept thinking. They smiled big and nodded “yes!!!” I couldn’t believe it. One of our embryos actually split, giving us one set of identical twins and a fraternal triplet. “Ohhh my gosh!!!” It was exciting and overwhelming, but mostly our hearts were bursting at the seams with the greatest joy I have ever experienced. It was certainly quite the shock as we had a 5% chance this would happen let alone both our embryos taking. We were so happy. Wow!!! Three Babies!!! What an absolutely blessing.
Our Doctor was amazing and incredibly loving and respectful, despite the fact that she had deeply urged us to only transfer one embryo because of the chances of falling pregnant with multiples. Obviously, it was our own personal decision and we didn’t take her advice. We knew when we chose to transfer 2 embryos there was a likelihood that both would take resulting in twins. However, we also knew we had a 5%chance that one of our embryos would split. 5%!!! I never imagined it would actually happen! However, God had different plans for us, much better plans!!
The journey we have been given to parenthood is nothing what I thought it would be. There were lots of tears, heart wrenching moments, physical pain, grief, jealousy, and a complete feeling of emptiness. However, despite how trying our journey was, it also was the most hopeful, rewarding, joyful experience I have ever shared in. I wouldn’t trade our story for anyone’s because I believe that God knitted every detail of our story so perfectly, in a way, that not only are we abundantly blessed and blown away by His complete and utter faithfulness, but others as well, bringing hope to many. We have been so fortunate to have experienced so much love and support by those we were surrounded by and those we have never met before.
And now, a few years later, I am continually reminded of that support. It takes a village to raise your babes. I wouldn’t trade my world for anything, but this job, raising triplets, isn’t easy, but I love being their Mama. I could have never imagined this would be like in the midst of my empty and broken womb, but wow!! It is a life of chaos, grace, faith, love, and constantly growing as a mom!! I’m grateful for those around me who continually lift me up and support me in this wild and crazy journey called Motherhood.”
This story was submitted to Love What Matters by Desiree Fortin of California. You can follow her journey as a mom of triplets on Instagram. Submit your story here, and subscribe to our best love stories here.
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