To The Girl Who Might Have To Wait, Know You Are Worthy Despite The Path You Find Yourself On

“To the girl who might have to wait. ⠀

I’m sorry you find yourself here. In this space of uncertainty and fear that the family you’ve always dreamed about may not come to be as you thought. ⠀

Woman trying to conceive and struggling with infertility takes a photo of herself at the fertility doctor — Courtesy of Briana Barrientos

I know you never pictured starting your family this way. You figured conceiving would be natural and effortless. I mean, it seems that way for everyone else. ⠀

You dreamt of the moment of deciding you and your partner were ready and it simply happening.⠀⠀⠀⠀

You dreamt of the pure joy that comes from a little person calling you ‘mama.’⠀⠀⠀

You figured you’d have the surprise of those 2 pink lines and not the possibility of enduring so much for them.⠀⠀⠀

Woman trying to conceive cries while she takes a photo with a negative pregnancy test — Courtesy of Briana Barrientos

You dreamt of the beauty and connection that is pregnancy.⠀

So, sweet girl who might have to wait, I’m writing this in the hopes your story is nothing like mine and so many others. Though I’m still in the trenches of infertility, having not yet attained motherhood, I do know how it feels to be where you are. Fearful, lost, isolated, and wondering if your dream of motherhood will come true, and how that road might look.⠀

I ask you to simply know you aren’t alone. And if you find yourself where I am, know you did nothing wrong and this isn’t your fault. Know you are worthy despite the path you find yourself on; your inability to conceive without assistance does not make you less than.

Woman trying to conceive takes a photo of a bracelet with "warrior" engraved in it above IVF needles, negative pregnancy tests, and pill bottles — Courtesy of Briana Barrientos

Know it’s okay to take time for yourself and set boundaries. Looking ahead may seem overwhelming and scary. Simply take it one day, step, and procedure at a time. And just because you trust that God has a plan, doesn’t mean you have to understand it.⠀

Let HOPE sustain you.” ⠀

Woman kisses her partner's cheek while he holds a sign that says "trigger time" and she holds a needle for an IVF treatment — Courtesy of Briana Barrientos

Woman trying to conceive and struggling with infertility takes a photo of herself wearing bracelets that says "hopeful mama" — Courtesy of Briana Barrientos

This story was submitted to Love What Matters by Briana Barrientos of San Marcos, TX. You can follow her journey on Instagram and Facebook. Submit your own story here and be sure to subscribe to our free email newsletter for our best stories.

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