“I sucked ass at being a mom today.
Some days, I feel like I’m not doing a good job at this mom thing. Because it’s so f***ing hard.
I know, I know, it’s always worth it, and I love my kids. But man, when did it get so hard?
Today I yelled too much at them, they watched too much television, I fed them pasta, which they glazed over, picking out most of the nutrients.
I yelled at them to stop yelling (funny huh?), I told my son to stop calling his sister ‘poopy head’ at least thirty times today. Something I never thought I would be doing.
As I write this story, I am sitting on my bedroom floor. Hiding. Trying to get a moment of silence. It’s so hard some days. And I know I’m not alone.
There’s no ‘silver lining’ to this story.
Being a mom is f***ing hard.
Everyday, I tell myself ‘tomorrow!’
Tomorrow will be the day I don’t yell.
Tomorrow will be the day I talk calmly all day to them.
Tomorrow will be the day they won’t fight with each other.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow will be better. Easier.
And whenever I lay them down to bed at night, I look at those beautiful souls I created and think, ‘How could I ever be so mad at them?’ It’s a routine I have had for the past few years now.
Being a mom is f***ing hard. And I suck at it a lot of the time. But that’s okay, because I’m trying my best to raise good, kind, decent, loving human beings, in a world so cold.
There’s no way that’s going to be easy.
Keep going mama, we got this. Even if we f***ing suck some times.”
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