“I didn’t know.
I didn’t know it would be this hard.
That I’d be this tired.
That I’d get so frustrated.
That I’d cry this much.
That I’d feel like a failure on a daily basis.
That I’d give my all and constantly wonder if it’s enough.
That I’d do all the things I said I’d never do.
That I’d question myself all the time.
That I’d make so many mistakes.
But I didn’t know.
I didn’t know I could love like this.
That I could function on so little sleep.
That I could be this patient.
That my heart would break each and every time yours does.
That I’d be so afraid of failing because I know raising you is the most important job I’ll ever have.
That, despite your protests, I’d stick to my guns on the important stuff.
That I could happily leave a sink full of dishes unwashed and the floor unswept to play a game of hide and seek.
That when I mess up, my apologies would become an unforgettable lesson in grace and forgiveness for us both.
Because I didn’t know.
Before you, I thought I knew.
But I didn’t.
Not even close.
And I’m still learning.
And there’s nothing more beautiful—more humbling, more breathtaking—than learning to be your mama.”
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