Disclaimer: This story contains details about child loss which may be triggering to some.
“Let me tell you, there is nothing more strange and awkward than taking pictures of your baby in the hospital. At least, this was my experience.
I’m not talking about the adorable milestone and NICU graduate photos. I mean the baby-might-not-make-it-through-the-night, let-me-capture-one-more-moment-while-I-still-can photos.
Each moment was more horrifying than the last. One moment, it would look like things were improving, and the next it would all come crashing down. But with every new phase, we took pictures, even the ones that were hard to take.
People tend to judge what they don’t understand and to some, it seems odd we would be taking pictures of, or sharing these rough moments. I don’t write this to make anyone feel bad or uncomfortable, but in the hopes I can help more people understand.
For 5 of the 6 days of my son’s life, he was hooked up to hospital machines, and yes, it can be hard to look at. But if you look past the tubes and tape, you’ll see my beautiful baby boy. The hope is that every baby will make it out of the NICU/PICU. For some of us, that’s not the case.
As hard as it was to take pictures, I’m so glad we did. This was his life. This is his story.
Go easy on us grieving mamas. We would give anything to be sharing perfectly composed photos of healthy little babies in our homes next to letter boards, but sometimes, that’s not the way the story goes. Sometimes, this is all we have.”
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