‘He screamed horrible things at me, broke my wall mirror, cornered me and told me he’d murder my family if I left him as he shook a butcher knife in my face.’

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“In October of 2015, I was laying in a hospital bed wishing I was dead. There was no light at the end of my tunnel. It seemed like the darkness went on forever and I just couldn’t pull myself out of this slump. I started putting myself down because I couldn’t even kill myself correctly. But I’m really glad I didn’t. Some people never get that second chance. Nobody really wants to die, they just want to kill their pain. I really didn’t have any reason to hate my life besides a chemical imbalance in my brain.

What happened next was definitely not in my plans, but God knew what he was doing. I was emotionally vulnerable and got into a toxic relationship with an abusive narcissist. In that relationship, I learned more about myself than I ever thought possible. During the short few months that were together, he took all the broken pieces of me and broke them even more. He had me believing that I was worthless and stupid and that he was the only person who would ever love me. I was manipulated away from my family and friends. I was isolated, I lost friends, I lost my apartment, I lost my pets, and he even sold my vehicle so I had no way out. (Luckily my parents and the police were able to help me get it back).

Although it seemed like I had lost everything while I was already down, I found my inner strength. I found the beautiful soul inside of me that knew she deserved better, that she could be better. I found my dreams that were buried inside of me hidden beneath all of my depression and dusted them off. Suddenly, I found the courage to leave. He screamed horrible things at me, he broke my wall mirror, he cornered me and told me he’d murder my family if I left him as he shook a butcher knife in my face. I was terrified. I left him anyway. I called my father to come get me and I called the police.

I was an emotional wreck. My parents dropped everything to help me get my stuff into a storage unit and move home with them. I didn’t quit my job – that was the one stable thing that I had, and I wasn’t going to let that go. About a week after I moved home, I saw my first ever double rainbow in the sky. I thought to myself, ‘This is God’s promise. My storm is over.’ Looking back, I truly believe it was a sign. This was God saying to me, ‘You will never be alone again. Stop seeking validation from other people and looking for the wrong kind of love. I am about to show you the purest form of love you will ever know.’ Two days later, I overheard a conversation at work about birth control and realized I couldn’t remember when I last had a period. I took a pregnancy test when I got home. It was positive. I was pregnant. I was freaking out. I was 26 years old and living with my parents. How was I going to take care of a baby?

Looking back, none of this even feels real anymore. The old me is a distant memory.

God knew I needed a real-life angel to save me from myself. My mom and sister were there for me every step of the way. I lost friends, but I also grew closer to people who I didn’t think even cared about me. Life has a funny way of working out.

In October of 2016, I was in a hospital bed preparing to meet the love of my life. What a difference one whole year can make. The day that she was born was the day my heart started beating outside of my chest. I haven’t been the same since. I am happier than I have ever been. I am working harder than I ever have to give the two of us a beautiful life. The moment that the nurses laid my little Macie Skye on my chest, everything was okay, and I knew that together, we always would be. I named my angel Macie Skye because Macie means ‘gift from God’ and Skye because of the double rainbow I saw before I found out about her. God’s promise.

In October of 2017, I celebrated her first birthday.

In October of 2018, I celebrated her second birthday.

I’m still at the same job. We have our own apartment and a better car. I’m in Nursing school. It’s hard but when I think of all I’ve been through to get to this point, I just remind myself that all of this will be worth it. I can’t thank God enough for this blessing that saved me. I needed her, and I didn’t even know it.

I am sharing this in hopes that it might help someone else. Life gets better. Make sure you’re around to see it.”

Courtesy Kira Farrington

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