“‘I am doing the best I can,’ I said to my husband as I felt a tear hit my cheek.
It was one of those nights. I was in pajamas by 4 p.m., my hair had some questionable things in it, and I had on a stained sweater that probably should have been washed a few days ago.
My husband got home, and walked in on me, pajamas, cooking soup with grilled cheese, that I burned, for the third time this week, and my hair looking like a bird was living in it.
He walked in on me getting upset at my four year old. Probably for something small, but to me, it felt massive.
I felt like I had failed. As a wife, and a mother.
I haven’t been making home-cooked, yummy meals lately.
I haven’t done my makeup in a long time.
My hair style now resembles a bird’s nest.
I am not patient with my children, I yell more than I would like to. I just thought I would be better at this whole mom and wife thing.
As I turned to look at the grilled cheese, I noticed I had burnt it (my kids definition of burnt – they’re very picky about their grilled cheese), while talking to my husband.
I threw my hands up in the air, and said, ‘I give up!’
I put the burned grilled cheese on a plate, and placed it on to the sticky kitchen table, and told the kids to eat.
They ate, without complaining, as I sat there in my pajamas, stained sweater, messy bun, and my failed dinner.
I sat there and watched them, as guilt washed over me like a wave.
I feel like I need to do more, all of the time. But the truth is, I am doing my best.
Next time you see your wife, the mother of your kids, looking like a complete mess, exhausted, and crying over burned grilled cheese, be kind to her.
She is doing her absolute best.”
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