“You see those socks on Chrissy Teigen’s feet?
I know those socks.
Rubbery bottoms and thin cotton. Presented to you in a sterile plastic package. Somehow, they end up on your feet. Maybe it was a nurse or maybe it was your partner who put them there. Not really warm, not really comfy, but still you wear them.
I’ve literally walked in those same socks as Chrissy Teigen. It’s a terrible thing we have in common. Because even though our experiences were different, we know the same heartbreak.
Both of us know what it’s like to hold our babies for the first, last, and only time.
Both of us know what it’s like to enter a hospital pregnant and leave without your baby.
Both of us know what it’s like to wear those socks.
And we’re not alone.
Because even if you didn’t wear the socks.
Even if your baby died at home.
Even if your baby died at 4 weeks or 12 weeks or 40 weeks.
You still know.
You know the heartache.
You know the emptiness.
You know the heavy, heavy grief of a parent living without their baby.
And because of this, we are never truly alone.”
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We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough. . . We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever. . . To our Jack – I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you. . . Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you. . . We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience. But everyday can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.
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